T IS MY FRIEND & FELLOW LYME BOARD MEMBER , THIS SAYS IT ALL – FOR PEOPLE TO UNDERSTAND . I AM OF COURSE OFFERING HELP TO HER !
I am so overwhelmed with the love from all my family and friends…I’m sorry I can’t respond to each of you right now I can hardly talk without crying…yesterday was the scariest day of my life…I had 5 minutes to evacuate my dog and I…of course I kind of froze and didn’t have a clue what to grab… I grabbed most of my daily medications but NONE of my lyme medications… I grabbed a couple yoga pants that were hanging on my drying rack…a pair of shoes some undies luckily a bra…swooped in bag hopefully most of my toiletries…dog food and dog blanket at that is it…it took almost 4 hours to get to Chico…I literally had flames up to my car on both sides of me in stand still traffic…once I got to move a little telephone pole wiring fell right in front of my car slammed on my brakes my dog it the glove box and landed in the floor…I sat there looking at the fiery wires in front of me and don’t know if I should drive over them or not but as the flames were heating my body I knew had to go….a ways down the road i actually saw a policeman got out of my car and ran to him and said I can’t do this I am too scared he hugged said everything is going to be ok but he put me back in my car and said I had to go now… so I did…so thankful to my brother who stayed on the phone with me and just said I had to drive drive on the sidewalk whatever you have to do just to drive…at one point I honest thought I was going to burn to death and we prayed together and I told him to tell everyone how much I loved them…I was truly living out my last words…I was not even in a safe zone yet but was literally going to pee my pants so my car was already stopped in traffic got out of my car and right there on the street i went potty…of course managed to get it all over me like a a 2 year old…finally safely made it to my dad’s in Oroville only to get a knock on the door from 2 policemen that we needed to evacuate…we are now all safely at my brothers…there is not a doubt in my mind that several of the cars behind didn’t not make it out and the reality they either burned in their cars or burned running on foot from the fire which was what the firemen told them to do that was their only hope…my heart breaks for the ones that didn’t make it out because there could be no worse death than burning trust me I know the scary feeling …as I sit here with my dog (which is truly all I need) I ponder my last 10 years of struggling to save my life from lyme disease…after a few years of being bedridden.finally got a diagnosis and have been fighting ever sense … in the meantime while trying to figure out what was wrong with my body I lost everything my home my business my job… I finally was at a point of starting over had myself a little tiny place it was nice and cozy and it was mine… it was filled with love… I felt very grateful… I did manage to start over at such a late stage in life…here I sit again having to start over…it is not confirmed by no one but me but I know my house did not survive…so here I sit again knowing i have to start over…I am strong i know I am because i am a lyme warrior but i honestly don’t know if i can start over yet again…my little town and my life will never be the same again…yes maybe I’m being selfish because EVERYTHING that was mine is gone…I should be happy to still be alive but somehow I’m not currently strong enough to feel any other way than defeated. D.F.
